Saturday, December 27, 2003 @8:55 PM
fEEliNg wEiRD...
hi...today woke up at 8 plus coz my aunt called..actually cannot go back and slp one but in the end i went back to slp...coz scare later slp too little i get headache....haiz...den wz wake mi up...yupx...tok for a while den put down le...den i went to have my lunch...i was watching tv at the same time....after toking to wz i feel weird...i dunno y...its like i'm gonna lose her someday or wat...i dunno...i dun wish to lose a close fren...i dun wan!!....and dunno y frm yesterday night to now...she keep appearing in my mind...i try to get it off my mind...but it juz keep coming back...i dunno y...juz feel weird when i tok to her these few days...i dunno y...maybe i juz miss her too much or maybe i juz fear tt next yr we wun be tt close...i realli dunno...i'm juz too confused and lost...i tried not to tink abt it but it juz keep coming back to mi...i hate this feeling...its gonna make mi go mad someday...i juz dun feel so right..i juz felt very sadistic these few days not my usual self....i dun like it....i hate it!!...hmm...i dunno...lolx...juz now i tried carrying my baby cousin but den carry awhile i said..."wah so heavy"....lol...wat the heck...i lost my energy...nvm...den she arh...see mi keep smiling and sticking out her tongue...haiyo...i noe is i teach her one but dun need to always show mi right...lol...she's juz too cute...hmmm...went to wz hse again...cried to her...coz i was feeling realli horrible...the more i tink the more scare i am...i juz fear tt next yr we wouldn't be as close as wat we r now...coz next yr is a bz yr for us...haiz...i dunno...den juz now went to heartland more i wanted to buy vodka...but in the end nv....hmm...went to shop around a there and compass point...was feeling quite faint though but i dun care....coz i dun feel like going home....shop until abt 8 plus...hmmm...now still feeling faint...haiz...gtg...byebye
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